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Live for This

9 Feb

i Live for the moments
when the Stars shine
through someone’s eyes
when a person’s face beams
brighter than the Sun

i Live for the times
when Heaven sings
through people’s Laughs
and sparkles
in a Smile

i Live for the days
that try our Souls
that stretch and pull our fibers
and make us more
of who we are

i Live for This

Live for This

Live for This

Adrift

11 Apr

Since surrendering and opening up my being, I find myself adrift amid a tumultuous sea of light and darkness. Emotions pull at my heart like a buoy line against the waves, stirring up memories both wonderful and distressing. It’s difficult to stay afloat, to keep my mind steady and open. I want to sink beneath the waves, drown out the pain, but in doing so I sacrifice the light. I’ve been here before, though I’ve never made it to my ship. I’ve always ended up sinking beneath the waves into the arms of the sea to try and float another day.

The light in me is a true gift, a blessing. I know I would not be here without it. When I’ve cut my lifelines out of fear and pride (one day I hope my friends will forgive me) the light dimmed but never went out. I saw my ship disappear beneath the horizon along with the loved ones I stopped from helping me. I was sure my light would leave me as all things had before (whether by their will or mine), but it persevered and so… so did I. It is this light in me, but more importantly, in everything that fosters infinite joy. I know it is good, but I fear it. I do not understand it. It can be a small smoldering ember or a brilliant and blinding spectacle; I fear of the possibilities of such a wonderful thing. I must let go of this fear to reach my ship and harness my light.

The darkness comes in waves of sorrow and pain from old wounds time covered up but never fully healed. Childhood shadows and my own self-centered blunders ripple out into the sea adding to the fray. Oddly though, I am alone and comfortable here. I know this pain. I know these wounds. I’ve shed these tears. I know I can survive this.

But life was not meant to be survived, it was meant to be lived! I need to overcome my fear and embrace the light; I need to drop my weights and swim.

As easy as it is to write, the task ahead of me is daunting. My sense of self-worth is stunted at best after years of self-bashing and positive reinforcement of such self-wrecking behavior. I set sail from tainted harbors after the damage was dealt only to find myself in a storm of my own making. I cannot undo what has been done, but I am going forward with cautious and deliberate strokes.

I can see the light within me, now I must know it. The waves and storm will subside when I am able to let the darkness go.

And I Quote… Week #52

14 Aug

No man can know where he is going unless he knows exactly where he has been and exactly how he arrived at his present place. -Maya Angelou

No man can know where he is going unless he knows exactly where he has been and exactly how he arrived at his present place. -Maya Angelou

And I Quote… Week #51

7 Aug

Certainly, travel is more than the seeing of sights; it is a change that goes on, deep and permanent, in the ideas of living. -Miriam Beard

Certainly, travel is more than the seeing of sights; it is a change that goes on, deep and permanent, in the ideas of living. -Miriam Beard

And I Quote… Week #44

19 Jun

Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without. -Buddha

Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without. -Buddha

And I Quote… Week #42

5 Jun

To finish the moment, to find the journey's end in every step of the road, to live the greatest number of good hours, is wisdom. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

To finish the moment, to find the journey's end in every step of the road, to live the greatest number of good hours, is wisdom. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

And I Quote… Week #41

29 May

Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines. -Satchel Paige

Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines. -Satchel Paige

And I Quote… Week #40

22 May

My life is like a stroll on the beach...as near to the edge as I can go. -Thoreau

My life is like a stroll on the beach...as near to the edge as I can go. -Thoreau

And I Quote… Week #37

1 May

What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?- Vincent van Gogh

What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?- Vincent van Gogh

 

And I Quote… Week #36

24 Apr

Life is an art we are required to practice without preparation, a score that we play at sight even before we have mastered our instruments. -Lewis Mumford

Life is an art we are required to practice without preparation, a score that we play at sight even before we have mastered our instruments. -Lewis Mumford